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What happens when you finally stop pretending you want freedom, and actually tell God the truth?In this deeply honest conversation, Ben Fitzgerald shares his story of struggling with pornography while walking in ministry, the moment God confronted what he was still keeping as an option, and how real freedom finally came when everything was brought into the light.Ben opens up about the tension of being anointed but still broken, the night he told God, “I want this, but I do not want to want it,” and why honesty from spiritual leadership played a crucial role in his deliverance. He also shares how Bethel leadership refused to let him step into pastoral leadership while he was secretly battling pornography and how that loving but firm boundary became part of his healing.We’ll talk about:What it actually looks like when God rescues someone from addictionWhy wanting freedom and being free are not the same thingThe moment Ben realized pornography was still an option in his heartHow honest accountability broke the p